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co I need to rant about co. I have no idea why the organization in tb is so bad. I don’t see other sections having this kind of problems. We don’t integrate; don’t have fun the way dyb does. It’s a far cry from how I felt with ruan. I mean, how can 3 guys actually leave me alone the way they did? They’re just encouraging me to pon co totally when the girls don’t come. They can ask a lot in their capacity as my senior. Because I’m pretty sure that they don’t even know my freaking sub combi. Right. There are times when we have a conversation that doesn’t sound like there’s prac tmr at 5. There was the way I was quite amused and surprised to receive his sms when I was sick. But looking at the current situation, it’s easy to overlook these. I know I can start talking first, like what people have said. But how am I supposed to talk to 3 senior guys when there’s only one me? -.- Its alr been 5 weeks and I haven’t gotten a full set of scores. Am I supposed to tell him that in his face everytime I see him? It’s just a freaking trip to the photocopy shop. He doesn’t even know if I can play the freaking songs. There’s so much to learn. And there’s barely enough time. Sigh. On my part, I’ve been ponning every non-practice related co activity. -.- I figure I should pay them a visit one of these mornings.. if xy goes. -.- then I’d be ponning zcove. Whatever. And I think I should actually go for the next co lunch. Plus bl’s been trying to convince me too. Bahh. We had lunch on wed before dazu. And basically I think the way I talk to the guys is crap. I mean yeah usually its alr crap but it happened to sound really bad that time. I’ve been wondering if zj recognizes me cause every time I walk past him I have this I know you but do you know me thought running through my head, so I don’t even acknowledge him or anything. Until that day in ljs when hl and mj walked past and waved, and he waved too. I suppose that means the daoing is over. Zj’s a good chair. It’s the impression I’ve had since he spoke to us. And the times I’ve heard him speaking to them. I will make an effort to learn the rest. If he doesn’t get me the score I’ll get it myself, because I can’t be waiting forever. I don’t have the luxury of time now. Zj’s warned us of night practices. I kind of forgot about it, although I knew about it a long time ago. That means time time and more time. Yx recently added another prac after dazu on wed. So now it’s until 7 on weds. Which means I’ve to go home myself because even if my dad is willing to wait there’s still my brother. Blehh. Don’t like going back after co cause I’m like the only one walking there or smth. Like, what the shit. Now I’ve to walk on wed and thurs. Not that I’d die, but.. whatever. I can’t say anything about the added prac, because I kind of think it’s the right thing to do. Plus I did a lot of that to my juniors once, so what can I say? Ahh. Now I know what jl means when she says she feels like the guy when talking to certain people. |
