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eois Eoi week. Disappointment, maybe. Practicality, of course. How could I forget, that's something we need to survive. Pragmatism, from social studies last year. Emotions are meant for you to keep. I guess I need occasional shots of reality. Or maybe the effects are just fading. My cells are evolving, changing, learning to adapt. Bio is one subject I really don't want to do badly in. Thankful for the teachers we have this year. At least my physics isn't as bad as last year's; at least I can take a proper stand for social studies. You never really thought I meant what I said, did you. I think I've found another person who is potentially harmful. Haha. Able to make me feel like a moron, that is. Thank you for telling me all that. For helping me. There isn't really anyone who's willing to bother about it, much less do smth about it. (: I wonder how soon it'll be. I guess I'm not ready to let go. Or maybe the sooner it is, the easier it will be for all of us. Afterall I did figure out that they'd be better of without them. And now it's our turn. My turn. We've watched each other growing up. I've seen how you've changed. Your attitudes, and how they've translated into your actions. I wonder if you'll think like that 2 years down the road? I wonder if we've left a footprint deep enough. I'll adapt. Being realistic has become part of the package of growing up. Oh. Happy bday my sis, qian, dawn. (: --------------------------------------- That was on the night of labour's day. 4 papers down, 3 left. I can hardly believe I've gone through 4. But technically studying was only required for..2. well, eng compre and qing jing zuo wen aren't for studying, comparatively. For some reason, I'm very badly prepared for Friday. Which happens to be chem. and maths. I rmb somewhere after first term I said smth about my chem going down, maths going up. Well. Maths didn't seem to stay up, for a whole bunch of careless mistakes. And chem… hasn't been tested. Although I know it's kind of neglected and dying out. I just have to survive physics tmr morning, maths tuition and prep in the afternoon, chemistry at night, maths on Friday morning, and chem after maths. –cough. And then I can go out on Friday. But who, where, for what? -.- sleep seems like a much more alluring idea right now. I can sleep until dinner, eat, watch tv, come online, get distracted, finally start on it at 11, and attempt to finish by 4am, followed by which I can try studying jap until 6. Then I can sleep again until 1 the next morning, go to the library, come back, waste time, look at maths pt if she gives us the paper, and repeat the cycle. Like, wth. Did I leave out physics pt? Bio was an utter waste of time. I didn’t seem to see answers that needed a whole lot of detail, at least, I didn't give answers with detail. Most of them were.. reasoning questions? I used Aa to represent haemoglobin alleles. Even though I know full well they're represented as Hb(s) and Hb(a). Tell me. What am I doing? Chinese wasn't much better. The titles were all so.. -.- I started after 15min of consideration, wrote 3.5 sides, used 10min to check for words, then wrote my conclusion in the last 5 min. and in that rush, mutated the word xing1 into a rather interesting form. I wonder how many cuo zi I have this time? English was long, too many words for summary, but too little points. Hurray. SS. what, thank a.zahar? Seems to be the case. People started writing as soon as the paper came. I started after 10min, and finished with 2min to spare. I wonder how much I lack. We're still having gongyan. No time for pros and cons now, though those affected don't exactly come here. 2 days. 夜空越黑,星星就越亮. |
